Adjusting My Crown

 

I am working on this project.  It came to soon.  This is a project that I have been putting off for so long.  My son wanted his own room for his graduation present.  Well, I brought a house.  So I have been panicking and screaming and crying about that I will be officially broke each month after I pay the mortgage for the month.   

I have been trying to remind myself that I have to go through the process in order for me to feel at home.  I find myself listening to my mom who sometimes put me down.  She always find a way to say that my feelings is on me.  Interesting right.  Anyway,  I usually panic and then figure out my plan to the solution.  Now, I just realizing that yes I am going to be hungry but like mommy says I am going to be broke and in my own house.  

Like the image above, I am going to adjust my crown and get my day started for what it is worth.  I feel like that is how everyone around me thinks that I am superwoman.  I feel like I should just get to the point.  Buying this house was my sign that I needed some form of freedom.  

I think this is my motto for the year!  I am going to wear my crown.   I don't have or want a King.  I do have a prince that I love and cherish.  

Achievements

 2024 was a hard year. Towards the end of the year, Great news! I graduated college after 20 years in and out with an Associate's degree in Healthcare Studies. Wow, a degree can't use. Anyway...

The school year 2024 - 2025 was about my 'Why'. My 'Why' went into his senior. Teachers  tried him, which mean they tried me. My 'Why' struggled. He was done and ready to go. I was with him. However, when he walked down the aisle, I cried. I saw his future. I saw my future.

Starving 'Artist' is what I am right now. Too many challenges.  Way too many open projects. New projects waiting to happen. 

RISKS

I have question myself.  Actually there have been people who have made me feel...  I have to be honest, the person that I want to be or wanted to be.  I question my son often.  How did I do? My son tells me often that I had a great childhood.  I am pleased but I feel like I am not done.   This is why I question myself.  

At 38 years old, I feel like that I have not done anything with my life.  This is a continuous journey.  I don't take risk.  I fear everything.  I just brought house at the request of my son.  The last time I took a risk was 18 years ago.  I became his mother and he became reason why.  I find that so many people challenge me by saying snide remarks and making me feel less then.  Now I have a house, so now I have to take risks.

RISKS...I brought a house.  That was a risk that I have taken recently.  Now I fear I will be or my son will be come a starving artist.  

I keep setting these goals and not succeeding.  RISKS... as a reflection, I have made mistakes, I have been struggling, we have been struggling.  My son has had pain and loss.  He has experienced anxiety and defeat and so have I.

RISKS...

Spring Art Exhibition and Sale

Prince Charming will be there to showcase his artwork. I didn't make the flyer. The event is April 24, 2025.

Business Consultant

 I find myself often talking about business.  I don't have a degree but maybe... My mom said that if I can, go for it. The thing about is no one is going to do business with me, because I haven't done business myself.   All I know is that I  have to fund all my projects.   Business Consultant...

Of course I am late.  April has already started. April is almost over and I have way too much to do.  This is all that is on my mind for April right now.   

 

Happy Easter!!!