July was a chaotic month. I was getting ready to pay a mortgage. I had a plan. This is personal for me. Yet there is so much to do. Buying a house is now going to make me move because I don’t like going without. I have had more panic attacks and anxiety attacks.
The breakdown…
Income Breakdown
Main Job Pay $1’919.97
eBay $0
July’s Gross Income
$1’919.97
Estimated Expenses
Supplies $300 (ask mom for the invoice)
July’s Estimated Expenses
$300
Net Income (estimated): $1’619.97
Lesson Learned
Need to come up with a plan to start advertising
Ebay is the platform to play with. I have started posting stuff on the page but I haven’t started to sell anything yet. We need an extra income.
#StarvingArtist
I am working on this project. It came to soon. This is a project that I have been putting off for so long. My son wanted his own room for his graduation present. Well, I brought a house. So I have been panicking and screaming and crying about that I will be officially broke each month after I pay the mortgage for the month.
I have been trying to remind myself that I have to go through the process in order for me to feel at home. I find myself listening to my mom who sometimes put me down. She always find a way to say that my feelings is on me. Interesting right. Anyway, I usually panic and then figure out my plan to the solution. Now, I just realizing that yes I am going to be hungry but like mommy says I am going to be broke and in my own house.
Like the image above, I am going to adjust my crown and get my day started for what it is worth. I feel like that is how everyone around me thinks that I am superwoman. I feel like I should just get to the point. Buying this house was my sign that I needed some form of freedom.
I think this is my motto for the year! I am going to wear my crown. I don't have or want a King. I do have a prince that I love and cherish.
2024 was a hard year. Towards the end of the year, Great news! I graduated college after 20 years in and out with an Associate's degree in Healthcare Studies. Wow, a degree can't use. Anyway...
I have question myself. Actually there have been people who have made me feel... I have to be honest, the person that I want to be or wanted to be. I question my son often. How did I do? My son tells me often that I had a great childhood. I am pleased but I feel like I am not done. This is why I question myself.
At 38 years old, I feel like that I have not done anything with my life. This is a continuous journey. I don't take risk. I fear everything. I just brought house at the request of my son. The last time I took a risk was 18 years ago. I became his mother and he became reason why. I find that so many people challenge me by saying snide remarks and making me feel less then. Now I have a house, so now I have to take risks.
RISKS...I brought a house. That was a risk that I have taken recently. Now I fear I will be or my son will be come a starving artist.
I keep setting these goals and not succeeding. RISKS... as a reflection, I have made mistakes, I have been struggling, we have been struggling. My son has had pain and loss. He has experienced anxiety and defeat and so have I.
RISKS...
